Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Bad Ass New Year

It's hard to believe another year has come and gone in my life. Time moves so quickly sometimes, doesn't it? I look back at all this year has held, and my breath is taken away. I got to start dating a man I am head-over-heels in love with. I went to Europe and had adventures with one of my sisters. I started medical school. So much has happened!

I'm always a bit uncertain at my birthday because I wonder what this new year of life will hold. I want to see beyond the bend. But as I realize all the good and the joy that was this last year, I feel content. I am excited for this year. Whether good or bad or in-between, it's life. It's exciting to know it's a new year with new possibilities and adventures.

I read in John 16 this morning, and the version I read really struck me, "be confident, certain, undaunted." I just love those words. I feel power in them. Whatever the future holds, know you can face anything. My dad told me today that I'm a bad ass, so I'm gonna face this new year like one: confident, certain, and undaunted.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Run Your Path

Tomorrow, I start my second week of medical school here in the Caribbean. It's already been a lot of work, and there have been some moments where I don't think I'll be able to hold out on this little island for 2 years. I worry I won't be able to stick with the amount of work. In those moments, I think of how nice it would be to go back home with my loved ones. How nice it would be to have free time. But then, I also think of what else I would want to do with my life. And nothing honestly comes up. Certainly nothing I'd want to do forever.

So then I remember why I am off in the middle of the ocean; I remember my dream and passion - to become a doctor. This isn't how I had ever imagined it happening, but I'm awfully thankful it is. I'm sure many of you are going through moments or paths that you never pictured either. But never let yourself lose sight of the bigger picture. There will be people who say no, including yourself. There will be times when you have to take a detour. But at the end of the day, never let your soul forget its purpose.

Whatever it is, it is your path. "Walk it. Run it. And keep on running." -Think Happy

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Sunday, March 12, 2017

50/50

Wouldn't it be nice if relationships were 50/50? I had always thought so, but I've come to realize that is a rarity. And I do believe I'm glad of it, because as I've given it more thought, it'd be impractical. There will be times in every relationship where one person or the other will be going through a trying time. They will be stressed or overwhelmed, and they simply won't have much to give. And here in lies the beauty of love and being in relation with someone else: when you're weak, they can be strong. When you only have 10 to give, it doesn't matter because the other's love will make up the difference.

I admit that I've struggled with this, still holding to the idea that it should always be 50/50. And don't get me wrong, I still whole-heartedly believe in the relationship being equal, but my definition of equal has changed. Now, instead of each giving 100% all the time, I see equal as each partner being willing to take their turn at being strong for the other. I see it as saying, "I'm in. During the good and bad, I'll be with you and for you." It isn't always easy, but that's love. When you choose to love someone, you're choosing to love an imperfect human in an imperfect world. Love isn't always easy, but it is always worth it.